Gary Fjellgaard's Single "I Apologize"

Written by Gary Fjellgaard June 2008 © Socan
Published by Slim Creek Music July 2008 © Socan

I have this guilt / I have this shame
I have a conscience / So I have to take the blame
I stood back / I watched it all
I even helped imprison you / Behind those walls

No excuse / Is good enough
We never let you speak / Unless you mimicked us
I can’t run / I can’t hide
 Why I can’t even / Look you in the eye

No hollow prayer / No silent shout
No more empty words / Spilling from my mouth
You stripped away / My thin disguise
Now all that I can do is say / I’m sorry
I apologize

I thought that God / Was on my side
And with my righteousness / I’d tame the savage child
I would not have them / Running free
If they assimilate / They could be like me

How many can / The wagons hold
Another thousand children / I suppose
It must have seemed / Like judgement day
The anguish / As the wagons rolled away

I can’t begin / To know your pain
You can’t forgive / As long as memory remains
Through it all / You still survive
And all that I can do  is say / I’m sorry
Choking on the words that say / I’m sorry
I apologize